God, direct my words and my thoughts. I don’t want to see and forget who you are and what you’ve done for me.
The experience of the Spirit for me seems to be scattered, few, and far between. It’s sad really, and God I want you to rain your Holy fire down on my spirit so I can recognize you in every breath I take.
One of the experiences is from a night of not sleeping. I worked really late, which means early early morning, and I had to be to school to lead prayer group a few hours later. So I decided I would just not sleep and hopefully try to get some homework done.
Through those hours temptation was rampant, and to be honest, if I’m remembering correctly (which I think I am), I gave into temptation. Pornography was a struggle in my life for a long long time, and it tries to rear its ugly ugly head from time to time.
I knew I couldn’t lead prayer in a sinful state. I gave up my inability to God, guilty of who I am as a person. If God is good He would carry me through even after my failures, and that He did.
Even after not sleeping so that I wouldn’t be late for prayer, I was late. But when I arrived, there was such a peace in that room that made me smile in spite of myself. The Spirit was literally filling me and giving me a peace over my life.
It’s literally unexplainable,
“The Lord your God is with you
He is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
He will quiet you with His Love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.